tragicpassions

today 29-11-09 was quite a happening day I must admit...
though i didnt go to church :/ cuz it was my grandpa's birthdayyyy!
started off well, with baby danielle cheering up my day :)
it's so nice to carry a baby girl and letting her wiggle in your arms ^^ HAHA cant wait to have babies with G :)
adorable muchhhhhhh :) :) :) she's damn freaking cuuuuuteeee!
hehe, what a doting uncle i am ^^
then later in the evening, i went for a jog to train..sheesh, ended up having cramps now ):
still a little painful at my abs area ): rawrrrrr i guess theres wind inside my tummy ): i wish i had someone by me right now ): sighh

oh great news update. I saw mel mak's facebook and read G's comment! not bad uh, someone's losing some calories by shopping for 6 hourssssss
*I wonder when I could do some shopping with her*

"Till the day you return, I'll keep myself occupied. with work, studies and challenges like those which can potentially hurt me lol"

it have been 24 hours since I last communicated with you... :(
I'm already missing you like crazy.
Am feeling really really empty right now ):

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO 5th DEC! ^^ hurry arriveeeeee!
G, I hope you're enjoying yourself and got to america safely! will be praying for your safety and your days in america :) love you loads baby

" Love is as much of an object as an obsession,
everybody wants it,
everybody seeks it,
but few ever achieve it,
those who do will cherish it,
be lost in it, and among all,
never... never forget it. "

Today is such an eventful day :)
22nd November. My 15th months with my baby and my Grandma's birthday! woohoo (:
It wasnt just today that made this day wonderful, it was a series of events.
Two nights ago, our longlost late night phone calls, simply nostalgic much! :)
Till today, we've been through so many ups and downs, more than anyone could expect us to go through...
Yet we remain so close by each other, supporting each other even though we get hurt at times. But it's all because we trust this relationship, we have faith that we will be together in the future. And that is why I am really grateful to have you as my beloved companion. :)
I must admit, the past episode of liking someone is indeed nerve-wrecking and painful, but I'm glad it's all over.
Like the picture shown above, We don't grow apart. We grow as a Pair :) As a couple, my dear <3
And yes, no matter what in the near future, if we do have any problems, I just want to let you know that, I'll always be behind you supporting you whenever you need me. ^^ Cause I want to be there for you...
I'd like to take this opportunity to thank you for being there for me for the past 15months, for being so sweet and nice to me. For making the effort to change and be someone better, to be so forgiving and submissive to my demands/criterion...
Though I don't say it, but I am really really appreciative to what you've done. Thank you.
I guess, though we didnt meet on this anniversary, our hearts still remain as one. Solid and loving one ;)
For all that you've done...I have only three words to speak.
I love you :) :) :)
It really bears a strong meaning behind those 3 simple yet powerful words!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US :D SWEET FIFTEENTH BABY :)

On the sidenote, Good luck for your chem reexam tmrw!! ^^ I hope you did study hard for it, after your mom's constant nagging! hehehee
and Oh man, my baby's flying off to america on tuesday. It's a pity I cant send you off! Oh wellz, I'll be longing for your return!!
Be sure you enjoy and take loads of pictures in america k!! :D wanna see my dearest <3 hehehe
I'll miss you so muchhhhhh, I know you know. Right :)
till then! i'll study hard for my common test and yearn for your presence once again! Take care baby :) love you so much G!

Should I just let this whole thing go because you're doing this for me, not for yourself..?

Is it myself? Why I can sacrifice everything just for one person, but others can't?
Why one can give up everything for one but others cannot give up everything for one?
Maybe we are, after all, different...
No one understands me, I guess only I know that answer myself.
Need some time alone, and hopefully you see this whole thing in a bigger picture because a little sacrifice will bring you far and might even be successful for all parties, not for two only.

Really enjoyed 6 Nov. Miss your hugs and kisses :)
Simply heavenly and blissful.
Shucks it's 1:30am already. I need to head to bed. I got back home not long ago, after my last bus abandoned us at stpats. So had to hike home. sigh, oh well, I hope I will not fall sick! Got lots of things to do. Grrrr...
Baby, imy! ^^ Thanks for everything. Trust is an important thing, and it requires a lot for a person to trust a person who broke that trust before. I know you can do it. But it takes time. One step at a time then :)
I'm sick - leaking nose. I have camp. I have homework/tutorial. Stressful life... shucks.

Oh well, OFF TO MY SEVEN HOURS OF SLEEP :) nights creatures and poor camp participants.

Today's a really special day (: And I mean it (:
Alright but before I begin that...Here's something I wanna share!

#1 - Q: What's the best way to propose to your financee/wife-to-be?
          guueeesssssssssssssssssss theeeeee answeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr!
okay A: Get her a BMW car. It's a sure fire win (: HAHA YOU KNOW WHY?
BMW stands for Be My Wife! INTERESTING EH LOL! ^^
hahha alright, that night i was laughing like crazy when my friend told me about this. joker...

#2 - Birth Flower Test for G and I (:
For my result, it was...
December - Narcissus
Narcissus is the birth flower for people who are born in December.
The Narcissus symbolizes success, good wishes, egotism, celebration and wealth.
If your birth flower is Narcissus: You have a very high level of self-confidence. You have strong willpower which helps you in difficult situations. You are more of a family person. You are logical and systematic.

As for G's one...
Lily of the Valley is the birth flower for people who are born in May.
The Lily of the Valley symbolizes sweetness, humility, purity and hope.
If your birth flower is Lily of the Valley: You are a beautiful person. You are known for your practical attitude towards life. You handle difficult situations very well. Your friends consider you as a sweet person.

How nice of the results right ? ^^ sweettttt to me heh.
Here's a flower that my aunt made :D Very pretty! It's made from wires, tapes and stockings. hahaha :)
it's pretty, but not as beautiful as you are ^^

#3 - Today 22nd October 2009

Okay firstly, it's our fourteenth months together already (:
So thankful for everything since the fireworks festival on 22nd Aug 08 ^^
And it has been fourteenth months since I actually met G on our anniversary. Today is the first time! Omgosh, and i really didn't expect it!
Oh well, really enjoyed one hour with you G(: Although it wasnt really that long together we had of the time, but really appreciate it that you took time off (: ily G^^
Oh, and also today's Tessa's 3 year long relationship! Congrats T (: Nice going with JY HAHA ^^
22nd october 2009 is indeed a date for me to remember! however, there's one thing unsettling on my mind... but i shall end this post with a statement.

I feel like a vile person through and through, deep down inside me.

Hoho! A new semester starting right smack on Monday! To many it's a holiday (damnnn those sec sch, jc and pri sch kids) HAHA!
Oh well, not too bad by starting off with macroeconomics and business statistics lectures (: 2hours each.
Indeed what a wonderful and tiring day! Oh well, I am really glad to be back in school. Miss those fun and hilarious moments. BEING RETARDED!
Oh yes and how good to realise that my Bstats tutor is gonna be some ah pek looking who cant speak properly kinda of tutor! HAHAHA FUNNY SHEESH when he said 'gender' as 'gant-der' HAHA! and statistics in his own weird way! LOL damn joke ^^ He srsly needs Pronounciation lessons :P but now i know i can have a good laugh every bstats class! hehe
Oh well, managed to settle my day well with a short nappie and revision of day 1(: 
And to my surprise, I'm in director's list for sem 1 (: coolios. hehe I will use this to spur my baby on with her studies and at the same time, treat it as an additional motivation for me to work harder this sem (:
Sem 2 HERE I COME BABY! :)
 
And this rainbow enriched with hope and delight appears as this whole new semester begins long after the past two stormy months.
Everything awaits (:

Oh dear, I miss you so much! Really thankful to have you spending and accompanying me throughout these few longgggg hours in school! It's gonna be 2 more days till we grow older as One :) love you loads G.

I received this email from a friend, a guy one, I don't know why he sent this, but here's something interesting for Girls (not guys) :)
1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.
2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
4. Guys will do anything just to get you(the girl) to notice him.
5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.
9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh....nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
11. Guys are very open about themselves.
12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
14. Guys love you more than you love them.
15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.
16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.
17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'
23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD, confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of them.
33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true.. (however, not so to me.)
34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.
36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ...it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.
37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Of all the 38 details that were mentioned, those that were italic fonts, I feel very strongly about it. I guess it's true as of a guy, a partner I am to be. Oh well, what a day of speedy recovery! Hurray! (:
Oh yes, baby G is having sleepover with her friends now, I'm envious and jealous. boohooo ): heh imy <3

I'm beginning to feel that I'm the cause of all wrong doings.
Not bringing any help, benefits, self actualisation or happiness...
Am I the curse, that always bring people down with pain and suffering?
Sometimes I question my existence.
Could I been away from this world to prevent all that I've done?
Why? Why? Why does it always need to be me?

Dismantle my heart. Destroy my soul. and Repair a new Being.

I feel like a trash bag being tossed and turned about. I need someone to feel how I do too as much as I try to feel for you.

Oh wellz, gonna rest early tonight. Am sick. Wonderful...so not. Nights earthlings!